when i write this post feeling is really tension.
feeling useless......unappreciated....troublemaker....and so many more negative meaning...
through the day, i keep on trying to smile but what i get at last is..crying alone after maghrib pray....T-T
really2 can't control the emotion...
today having iso audit...my department HR got 3 minor and 1 observation, and actually minor that finalize from audit team is major issue. Using the superseded form of course la kan...but actually its not superseded just revise the consequence number. Another issue is there are some sample that not having HOD signatory. for the observation is that there are no current listing for current training...
i m not good in explaining the process that i face today.
but what that i can say learn from mistakes is not really encouraging
learn from mistakes will give more bad effect if you always done wrong
but also 'officemate' also is not really the right 'teacher' even though she has experienced more there.
another gossip, after office hour pon, HOD can call to fulfill their rquest...come on la 7.30 alrready, nak terpekik n marah...nonsense kot...hhuhuuu...
What i feel disappointed for myself is that why i can't manage to do my work accordingly...and why when conflict arise, then br la mula nak lari blk kampong...huaaa..tension...
and i just thinking is it all human will feel to run away when there having problem...i think the answer is yes..
but the action taken not really to run away from problem.
There are many other way that we might solve the problem rather than to run away...
hhmm...now i just wondering on how to face the problem with the critical situation...
Monday, April 25, 2011
Friday, April 22, 2011
Jum Jumaat...
To Jumaat: Jom kite berangkat ke Sabtu..supaya ilanglah misery sedikit minggu ni...tapi minggu depan...mmm...janganla menambahkan bebanan kepada aku....huaaaa...
The real situation is, i'm feeling tension this week. Reason?
One of the reason, I think the obvious one is my life schedule this week are tremendously kucar-kacir...reason for kucar-kacir?
hhmm...(sambil gosok dagu)...sbb korean drama series: you're beautiful (so, sweet and fun) ....
Another reason?
hhmmm..bnyk keje beb...mne satu nak mula...(tapi tu la sempat lg aku blogging..mm..sabo aje la)
To be continued.....
The real situation is, i'm feeling tension this week. Reason?
One of the reason, I think the obvious one is my life schedule this week are tremendously kucar-kacir...reason for kucar-kacir?
hhmm...(sambil gosok dagu)...sbb korean drama series: you're beautiful (so, sweet and fun) ....
Another reason?
hhmmm..bnyk keje beb...mne satu nak mula...(tapi tu la sempat lg aku blogging..mm..sabo aje la)
To be continued.....
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Maha Melihat
mmm...at 3.14 a.m...ditemani dgn this song, really like:-
singer by opick and amanda
Seiring waktu berlalu
Tangis tawa dinafasku
Hitam putih dihidupku
Jalani takdirku
Tiada satu tersembunyi
Tiada satu yang terlupa
Segala apa yang terjadi
Engkaulah saksinya
Reff
Kau Yang Maha Melihat
Kau Yang Maha Melihat
Kau Yang Maha Pemaaf
Pada-Mu hati bertobat
Kau Yang Maha Pengasih
Kau Yang Maha Penyanyang
Kau Yang Maha Pelindung
Pada-Mu semua bertekun
Yang dicinta ‘kan pergi
Yang didamba ‘kan hilang
Hidup ‘kan terus berjalan
Meski penuh dengan tangisan
Andai bisa ku mengulang
Waktu hilang dan terbuang
Andai bisa ku kembali
Hapus semua pedih
Andai mungkin aku bisa
Kembali tulus segalanya
Tapi hidup takkan bisa
Meski derai air mata
Reff: 2x
singer by opick and amanda
Seiring waktu berlalu
Tangis tawa dinafasku
Hitam putih dihidupku
Jalani takdirku
Tiada satu tersembunyi
Tiada satu yang terlupa
Segala apa yang terjadi
Engkaulah saksinya
Reff
Kau Yang Maha Melihat
Kau Yang Maha Melihat
Kau Yang Maha Pemaaf
Pada-Mu hati bertobat
Kau Yang Maha Pengasih
Kau Yang Maha Penyanyang
Kau Yang Maha Pelindung
Pada-Mu semua bertekun
Yang dicinta ‘kan pergi
Yang didamba ‘kan hilang
Hidup ‘kan terus berjalan
Meski penuh dengan tangisan
Andai bisa ku mengulang
Waktu hilang dan terbuang
Andai bisa ku kembali
Hapus semua pedih
Andai mungkin aku bisa
Kembali tulus segalanya
Tapi hidup takkan bisa
Meski derai air mata
Reff: 2x
Sunday, April 10, 2011
my Nieces
This evening, my sister had just called me to go out, makan2 je katanya since I did not go back to her house this weekend. i guess their children also want to jalan2 so, by visiting me is part of activity that able to release their joy. After we eat at restaurant, Angah's son which is my nephew want to go to Taman Layang2. Hmm..I thought its layang2 will not suitable to play today because its rainy. However we go there to play2 and just round.
What make me feel smile this evening is my nieces yg bongsu:-
She coughing and mumbling,
Basyeera: Alang (which is me), Adek batuk, tak makan ubat.
Alang: Tu la, sape suh yata tak makan ubat.
Basyeera: Mama la. Tak bagi ubat kt Adik ni.
Her mama: Owh...pandai ek...
We all sumer ketawa je la. Alasan mama tak bagi ubat tu sememangnya direka khas untuk aku supaya orang tak marah kt die. Haahaaa..I know la Yaya memang jenis susah nak makan ubat. Siap main aci kejar2 lagi klu nak suap ubat...Macam2 la yaya ni..
Basyeera, br berumur 2 tahun dan bg aku jenis yg cepat m'besar & bijak kerana salah satu faktornya, die kena adopt live dgn akaknya yg umor 5 tahun and abangnya yg darjah 4 skan. Disampinng faktor lain, pengambilan susu dan pemakanan lain. Sukakan musik dan lagu. Tak kesah la lagu islamik or R&B or ape2 yg ase best kt telinga die.
=))
What make me feel smile this evening is my nieces yg bongsu:-
She coughing and mumbling,
Basyeera: Alang (which is me), Adek batuk, tak makan ubat.
Alang: Tu la, sape suh yata tak makan ubat.
Basyeera: Mama la. Tak bagi ubat kt Adik ni.
Her mama: Owh...pandai ek...
We all sumer ketawa je la. Alasan mama tak bagi ubat tu sememangnya direka khas untuk aku supaya orang tak marah kt die. Haahaaa..I know la Yaya memang jenis susah nak makan ubat. Siap main aci kejar2 lagi klu nak suap ubat...Macam2 la yaya ni..
Basyeera, br berumur 2 tahun dan bg aku jenis yg cepat m'besar & bijak kerana salah satu faktornya, die kena adopt live dgn akaknya yg umor 5 tahun and abangnya yg darjah 4 skan. Disampinng faktor lain, pengambilan susu dan pemakanan lain. Sukakan musik dan lagu. Tak kesah la lagu islamik or R&B or ape2 yg ase best kt telinga die.
=))
MenCabar..TerCabar..DiCabar
Today someone has arguing me regarding what I had learnt at university that i can apply for the job at office.
She keep asking me to see the transcript since she had no idea to configure what is financial mathematics was about.
In a simple way I can say that the subject is applied mathematical methods in a finance application.
From my research, Financial Mathematics comprises the branches of applied mathematics concerned with the financial markets.
The course related are:
Financial Mathematics, Financial Engineering, Stochastic, Econometrics, Forecasting, Corporate Finance, Financial Management, Financial Accounting, Managerial Accounting, Theory of Interest and Mathematical Statistics.
From my view and experience in my career life, honestly I can't still to apply what I had learnt. I mean the syllabus. However there are another things that applied for a job despite of the syllabus learnt which are our SKILLS. The skills I mean here is our soft skill, our ability to work under pressure, tight deadline, handling hard people, fast learner, eager to know something new with fast catch up a resource and research and so on. In a way critical and creative thinking is very important factor in a life. With these thinking if you are being allocated to do a job that beyond your syllabus during studying, the hurdle become adventure and you are POSSIBLE to make it better and the BEST after all.
I can understand how they feel that make them want to know what I learnt, because there is also a time for me 'terdetik' : "what I had learnt for the past four years?? " , "Why I can't catch up the account that they all made?"
I also learn about account part as well. Prepare income statement, balance sheet, record the expenses and also learn how to analyse the financial performance via income statement and balanc sheet. So, there are no any excuses left. I can't say the university did not produce a good quality of student because there must be another maybe a lot of student that are good quality of product.
So, the main factor itself asking and develop myself.
She keep asking me to see the transcript since she had no idea to configure what is financial mathematics was about.
In a simple way I can say that the subject is applied mathematical methods in a finance application.
From my research, Financial Mathematics comprises the branches of applied mathematics concerned with the financial markets.
The course related are:
Financial Mathematics, Financial Engineering, Stochastic, Econometrics, Forecasting, Corporate Finance, Financial Management, Financial Accounting, Managerial Accounting, Theory of Interest and Mathematical Statistics.
From my view and experience in my career life, honestly I can't still to apply what I had learnt. I mean the syllabus. However there are another things that applied for a job despite of the syllabus learnt which are our SKILLS. The skills I mean here is our soft skill, our ability to work under pressure, tight deadline, handling hard people, fast learner, eager to know something new with fast catch up a resource and research and so on. In a way critical and creative thinking is very important factor in a life. With these thinking if you are being allocated to do a job that beyond your syllabus during studying, the hurdle become adventure and you are POSSIBLE to make it better and the BEST after all.
I can understand how they feel that make them want to know what I learnt, because there is also a time for me 'terdetik' : "what I had learnt for the past four years?? " , "Why I can't catch up the account that they all made?"
I also learn about account part as well. Prepare income statement, balance sheet, record the expenses and also learn how to analyse the financial performance via income statement and balanc sheet. So, there are no any excuses left. I can't say the university did not produce a good quality of student because there must be another maybe a lot of student that are good quality of product.
So, the main factor itself asking and develop myself.
Monday, April 4, 2011
KeNaPa AkU dIuJi
Terdetik wat kesekian kali tuk menulis disini..
walaupun kesibukan melanda diri tetapi terasa kosong bile x ada kanvas yang nk aku throw d trump..
Teringat waktu mkn td, my colleague mengeluh kerana bosan dengan kerja. Katanya asyik kejar duniawi yg x sudah2. Hmm..aku terdiam sejenak. Ku pikir2 die ni mesti tension tahap gaban. Sbb setau manager cm die jenis komited giler dgn keje. Ucapan reflek setelah berkata begitu - mm..bese la keje..klu ikutkan mmg nk duk uma tido or wat sesuatu sumthing yg bermakna with family and spouse..tinggalkan hal duniawi..tetapi hakikatnya kite xboleh mengasingkan antra duniawi dan aukhrawi. Bagi aku setiap perkara duniawi yang dilakukan perlulah stabil dan seiring dengan hal ukhrawi. Kan?
Mcm hal keje. Setiap hari pergi keje matahari pon br nak keluar, habis kerja matahari da ilang diawan menggantikan sinaran bulan. Dan ye seperti yang sedia ketahui kerja tu sendiri adalah ibadah. So, sebaiknya semaikan dalam hati kite, niat dgn ikhlas untuk mengerjakan ibadah tersebut. Dalam pada tempoh masa kerja itu juga, perlulah kita ingat ibadat wajib yang perlu kita kerjakan, SOLAT. Bak dalam lagu saujana "walaupun hidop seribu tahun, kalau x sembahyang apa gunanya....."
Kadang2 bila kite membuat kerja kita menjadi leka dan melupakan solat, Harus kite ingat bahawa kite mungkin lupa tetapi Allah tidak mungkin lupa janjiNya.
Perkara solat la yg plg aku takut. Terkadang pernah jugak terbabas solat ni..sedih nye rase. Dan lagi la sedih bile kadang2 tu kite x mampu untuk mengajak kawan2 di persekitaran kite untuk sama2 manunaikan tiang agama ini agar iman kite tidak rapuh..
Terkadang ade ase jeles kt kawan lain yg dpt bekerja dlm keadaan yg boleh dikatakan "bi'ah solehah"...tp tu la org kata sebenanrnye Allah itu Maha Adil. PAstinya ada hikmah yg tersembunyi.. yg plg ketara aku rasa..Allah sedang menguji aku...menguji iman aku..huhu...ase sgt statistik iman aku naik turun, klu leh digambarkan mcm paparan saham kat bursa malaysia..:D
Harta didunia tidak kekal lama..Bila ajal da datang hanya amalan yg jd peneman...T-T
walaupun kesibukan melanda diri tetapi terasa kosong bile x ada kanvas yang nk aku throw d trump..
Teringat waktu mkn td, my colleague mengeluh kerana bosan dengan kerja. Katanya asyik kejar duniawi yg x sudah2. Hmm..aku terdiam sejenak. Ku pikir2 die ni mesti tension tahap gaban. Sbb setau manager cm die jenis komited giler dgn keje. Ucapan reflek setelah berkata begitu - mm..bese la keje..klu ikutkan mmg nk duk uma tido or wat sesuatu sumthing yg bermakna with family and spouse..tinggalkan hal duniawi..tetapi hakikatnya kite xboleh mengasingkan antra duniawi dan aukhrawi. Bagi aku setiap perkara duniawi yang dilakukan perlulah stabil dan seiring dengan hal ukhrawi. Kan?
Mcm hal keje. Setiap hari pergi keje matahari pon br nak keluar, habis kerja matahari da ilang diawan menggantikan sinaran bulan. Dan ye seperti yang sedia ketahui kerja tu sendiri adalah ibadah. So, sebaiknya semaikan dalam hati kite, niat dgn ikhlas untuk mengerjakan ibadah tersebut. Dalam pada tempoh masa kerja itu juga, perlulah kita ingat ibadat wajib yang perlu kita kerjakan, SOLAT. Bak dalam lagu saujana "walaupun hidop seribu tahun, kalau x sembahyang apa gunanya....."
Kadang2 bila kite membuat kerja kita menjadi leka dan melupakan solat, Harus kite ingat bahawa kite mungkin lupa tetapi Allah tidak mungkin lupa janjiNya.
Perkara solat la yg plg aku takut. Terkadang pernah jugak terbabas solat ni..sedih nye rase. Dan lagi la sedih bile kadang2 tu kite x mampu untuk mengajak kawan2 di persekitaran kite untuk sama2 manunaikan tiang agama ini agar iman kite tidak rapuh..
Terkadang ade ase jeles kt kawan lain yg dpt bekerja dlm keadaan yg boleh dikatakan "bi'ah solehah"...tp tu la org kata sebenanrnye Allah itu Maha Adil. PAstinya ada hikmah yg tersembunyi.. yg plg ketara aku rasa..Allah sedang menguji aku...menguji iman aku..huhu...ase sgt statistik iman aku naik turun, klu leh digambarkan mcm paparan saham kat bursa malaysia..:D
Harta didunia tidak kekal lama..Bila ajal da datang hanya amalan yg jd peneman...T-T
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