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..jadilah wanita terindah mendamaikan setiap mata memandang, bukan wanita berhias indah 
memuaskan nafsu si mata keranjang....

Jangan Mudah Mengucap Kata

Recently, I had been talk with my friend. Old friend, I can say. Long time no see. For almost 6 years. For last 6 years our relationship is neither really good nor really bad. If we met, then something will happen. Kalau tak bergaduh tak bertumbuk tak jeling2 tak bertikam lidah mmg la xsah..Sometime ase terkilan jgk. Why? Why he always makes me feel bad? Why he always makes me joke? Am I too bad? Am I too short? Am I so brutal? Am I so heartless? What I’ve done to him that makes him done like that to me? Are you jealous with me huh?  OR shall I ask “Are you like me?”

Ok that the story previous six years. For now, I did not intend to start any fighting or arguing him anymore. I think and very sure he also feels the same way. After have been talked through the phone several times and contacting through chatting FB, he asked me something that make me very shocked, panic and do not know what to do. Through the phone, he tell me about the marriage!!! Is him on the line??? Yes. I am very sure. But why he sound like that? What the motive? Are you serious with your word? Should I call the doctor for you?

I know that I had grown up. Even my course-mate had become sweet mom J. Back to my situation, I do not know what to response after he asked me to marry. My spontaneous action, Marry me? Are you serious? –Yes. Gurlp….Cover..cover..change another question..and the conversation is ended with the family matters and what gonna happen is family’s first.

Deeply in my heart – Yes, I do! But why I become speechless when he said like that? The reason is simple. Back to last 6 years story;

Why? Why he always makes me feel bad? Why he always makes me joke? Am I too bad? Am I too short? Am I so brutal? Am I so heartless? What I’ve done to him that makes him done like that to me? Are you jealous with me huh?  

And the summary that I shall conclude here is:- he just asking, not intend to make me feeling heart and hard.

BUT..PLEASE la…DON’T play2 with that word..I’m NOT 16 YEARS OLD GIRL ANYMORE in order for you to make dump joke…IF YOU ARE DEADLY SERIOUS WITH WHAT ARE YOU SAYING THEN DO IT EVEN IF I SAY DON’T !!!!

jgn hanya berjanji, klu msh mencari2...jgn hanya mengungkap  kata klu hanya berdusta..

Nota Kaki:- Ya Allah jika benar dia untukku maka permudahkanla urusan kami, jika dia bukan untukku maka redhailah hati ku untuk menerima takdir yang Kau beri. Sesungguhnya hanya Engkau yang Maha Mengetahui atas tiap sesuatu yang terjadi. Berikan kepada ku petunjuk dan hidayah agar tidak hanyut dalam bisikan cinta manusia semata-mata. Hanya kepada Mu ku berharap. 

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‎long time no see this blog...sepi tanpa bicara..haila...cner nk lebih maju setapak melangkah ke arah wordpress...hehe...


tonight feel like lose something/someone that makes me wanna stick on note :





"There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept,

things we don't want to know but have to learn,

and people we can't live without but have to let go.."

T-T

chantek an keta ni....fuh....Audi A4(B8)...

~Hambamu~

Ni lirik lagu sebenarnye, nyanyian mawi ft. Akhil Hayy....uuu....best syt2 die kn....mmm.....

~Hambamu ~

Ke arah satu perjalanan
Dalam sebuah kehidupan
Demi untuk mengecapi
Hasrat murni di dalam hati

Usaha dengan doa itu,
Masanya akan tiba
Dengan restu Illahi
Kelak pasti akan ditemui


Suluhkan cahaya hati di terang
Tunjukkan jalan
Seandainnya hilang
Tegakkan perjalanan
Yang bakal ditempuh

Tegakkan semangat bila runtuh,
Setibanya disisimu ku berserah,
Terimalah aku
Hamba mu Allah 


Hambamu Allah.....


Sekiranya takdir menguji
Cekalkan hasrat dihati
Semoga kesusahan bisa
Mengajar erti terus azam



Usaha dengan doa itu,
Masanya akan tiba
Dengan restu Illahi
Kelak pasti akan ditemui 

Suluhkan cahaya hati di terang
Tunjukkan jalan
Seandainnya hilang
Tegakkan perjalanan
Yang bakal ditempuh

Tegakkan semangat bila runtuh,
Setibanya disisimu ku berserah,
Terimalah aku
Hamba mu Allah

detik dan waktu......

Ambillah waktu untuk berfikir, itu adalah sumber kekuatan. Ambillah waktu untuk bermain, itu adalah rahsia dari masa muda yang abadi. Ambillah waktu untuk berdoa, itu adalah sumber ketenangan. Ambillah waktu untuk belajar, itu adalah sumber kebijaksanaan. Ambillah waktu untuk mencintai dan dicintai, itu adalah hak istimewa yang diberikan Tuhan. Ambillah waktu untuk bersahabat, itu adalah jalan menuju kebahagiaan. Ambillah waktu untuk tertawa, itu adalah musik yang menggetarkan hati. Ambillah waktu untuk memberi, itu adalah membuat hidup terasa bererti. Ambillah waktu untuk bekerja, itu adalah nilai keberhasilan. Ambillah waktu untuk beramal, itu adalah kunci menuju syurga.

myMetro | Geng Parang Panjang muncul lagi

myMetro | Geng Parang Panjang muncul lagi

Proactive at Work

Let’s take a few minutes to look critically at your actions in the workplace.

·         Do you react to the events happening around you or do you take initiative to prepare for, participate in and/or control the events?

(or you just bia je la..ape nak jadi2 jadi la..ish..xleh cm tu, Actually YOU have to take an action on events happened / happening / will happen)

·         Do you take an active or passive role? Do you think in terms of the present or do you look to the future, anticipating outcomes and preparing for the consequences?

(Bak kata bos, can u see the big picture on what your work / on issue arise? The source and consequence..)

·         Do you make a decision only when you have to, when you’re backed into a corner or when you’ve put it off for as long as you can? Or do you make conscious decisions as part of a larger, long-term plan?

(bile event da jadi sesuatu yg “terlambat” br nak take an action..bak kata pepatah Melayu; Sudah jatuh baru nak terngadah..ish..ish..xpatot2…)

The most valuable employees are the ones who are proactive.

What is proactive?

The proactive employee can control situations by causing things to happen rather than waiting to respond after things happen. 

People who are proactive don’t sit around waiting for answers to appear; they stand up, put one foot in front of the other, and find the answers. 

They don’t wait for someone to hand them an instruction manual and a box of tools; they’re resourceful.

Proactive people are constantly moving forward, looking to the future, and making things happen. They’re actively engaged, not passively observing. Being proactive is a way of thinking and acting.

mmm...how to be a proactive people...lets see on another entry...~ws~

Fight the bad day for tomorrow survival

when i write this post feeling is really tension.
feeling useless......unappreciated....troublemaker....and so many more negative meaning...
through the day, i keep on trying to smile but what i get at last is..crying alone after maghrib pray....T-T
really2 can't control the emotion...

today having iso audit...my department HR got 3 minor and 1 observation, and actually minor that finalize from audit team is major issue. Using the superseded form of course la kan...but actually its not superseded just revise the consequence number. Another issue is there are some sample that not having HOD signatory. for the observation is that there are no current listing for current training...

i m not good in explaining the process that i face today.
but what that i can say learn from mistakes is not really encouraging
learn from mistakes will give more bad effect if you always done wrong
but also 'officemate' also is not really the right 'teacher' even though she has experienced more there.

another gossip, after office hour pon, HOD can call to fulfill their rquest...come on la 7.30 alrready, nak terpekik n marah...nonsense kot...hhuhuuu...

What i feel disappointed for myself is that why i can't manage to do my work accordingly...and why when conflict arise, then br la mula nak lari blk kampong...huaaa..tension...

and i just thinking is it all human will feel to run away when there having problem...i think the answer is yes..
but the action taken not really to run away from problem.
There are many other way that we might solve the problem rather than to run away...

hhmm...now i just wondering on how to face the problem with the critical situation...

Jum Jumaat...

To Jumaat: Jom kite berangkat ke Sabtu..supaya ilanglah misery sedikit minggu ni...tapi minggu depan...mmm...janganla menambahkan bebanan kepada aku....huaaaa...

The real situation is,  i'm feeling tension this week. Reason?
One of the reason, I think the obvious one is my life schedule this week are tremendously kucar-kacir...reason for kucar-kacir?
hhmm...(sambil gosok dagu)...sbb korean drama series: you're beautiful (so, sweet and fun) ....

Another reason?

hhmmm..bnyk keje beb...mne satu nak mula...(tapi tu la sempat lg aku blogging..mm..sabo aje la)


To be continued.....

Maha Melihat

mmm...at 3.14 a.m...ditemani dgn this song, really like:-

singer by opick and amanda

Seiring waktu berlalu
Tangis tawa dinafasku
Hitam putih dihidupku
Jalani takdirku

Tiada satu tersembunyi
Tiada satu yang terlupa
Segala apa yang terjadi
Engkaulah saksinya

Reff
Kau Yang Maha Melihat
Kau Yang Maha Melihat
Kau Yang Maha Pemaaf
Pada-Mu hati bertobat

Kau Yang Maha Pengasih
Kau Yang Maha Penyanyang
Kau Yang Maha Pelindung
Pada-Mu semua bertekun

Yang dicinta ‘kan pergi
Yang didamba ‘kan hilang
Hidup ‘kan terus berjalan
Meski penuh dengan tangisan

Andai bisa ku mengulang
Waktu hilang dan terbuang
Andai bisa ku kembali
Hapus semua pedih

Andai mungkin aku bisa
Kembali tulus segalanya
Tapi hidup takkan bisa
Meski derai air mata

Reff: 2x

my Nieces

This evening, my sister had just called me to go out, makan2 je katanya since I did not go back to her house this weekend. i guess their children also want to jalan2 so, by visiting me is part of activity that able to release their joy. After we eat at restaurant, Angah's son which is my nephew want to go to Taman Layang2. Hmm..I thought its layang2 will not suitable to play today because its rainy. However we go there to play2 and just round.

What make me feel smile this evening is my nieces yg bongsu:-
She coughing and mumbling,
Basyeera: Alang (which is me), Adek batuk, tak makan ubat.
Alang: Tu la, sape suh yata tak makan ubat.
Basyeera: Mama la. Tak bagi ubat kt Adik ni.

Her mama: Owh...pandai ek...

We all sumer ketawa je la. Alasan mama tak bagi ubat tu sememangnya direka khas untuk aku supaya orang tak marah kt die. Haahaaa..I know la Yaya memang jenis susah nak makan ubat. Siap main aci kejar2 lagi klu nak suap ubat...Macam2 la yaya ni..

Basyeera, br berumur 2 tahun dan bg aku jenis yg cepat m'besar & bijak kerana salah satu faktornya, die kena adopt live dgn akaknya yg umor 5 tahun and abangnya yg darjah 4 skan. Disampinng faktor lain, pengambilan susu dan pemakanan lain. Sukakan musik dan lagu. Tak kesah la lagu islamik or R&B or ape2 yg ase best kt telinga die.

=))

MenCabar..TerCabar..DiCabar

Today someone has arguing me regarding what I had learnt at university that i can apply for the job at office.
She keep asking me to see the transcript since she had no idea to configure what is financial mathematics was about. 


In a simple way I can say that the subject is applied mathematical methods in a finance application.
From my research, Financial Mathematics comprises the branches of applied mathematics concerned with the financial markets. 
The course related are:
Financial Mathematics, Financial Engineering, Stochastic, Econometrics, Forecasting, Corporate Finance, Financial Management, Financial Accounting, Managerial Accounting, Theory of Interest and Mathematical Statistics. 


From my view and experience in my career life, honestly I can't still to apply what I had learnt. I mean the syllabus. However there are another things that applied for a job despite of the syllabus learnt which are our SKILLS. The skills I mean here is our soft skill, our ability to work under pressure, tight deadline, handling hard people, fast learner, eager to know something new with fast catch up a resource and research and so on. In a way critical and creative thinking is very important factor in a life. With these thinking if you are being allocated to do a job that beyond your syllabus during studying, the hurdle become adventure and you are POSSIBLE to make it better and the BEST after all. 


I can understand how they feel that make them want to know what I learnt, because there is also a time for me 'terdetik' : "what I had learnt for the past four years?? " , "Why I can't catch up the account that they all made?"
I also learn about account part as well. Prepare income statement, balance sheet, record the expenses and also learn how to analyse the financial performance via income statement and balanc sheet. So, there are no any excuses left. I can't say the university did not produce a good quality of student because there must be another maybe a lot of student that are good quality of product.


So, the main factor itself asking and develop myself.

KeNaPa AkU dIuJi

Terdetik wat kesekian kali tuk menulis disini..
walaupun kesibukan melanda diri tetapi terasa kosong bile x ada kanvas yang nk aku throw d trump..


Teringat waktu mkn td, my colleague mengeluh kerana bosan dengan kerja. Katanya asyik kejar duniawi yg x sudah2. Hmm..aku terdiam sejenak. Ku pikir2 die ni mesti tension tahap gaban. Sbb setau manager cm die jenis komited giler dgn keje. Ucapan reflek setelah berkata begitu - mm..bese la keje..klu ikutkan mmg nk duk uma tido or wat sesuatu sumthing yg bermakna with family and spouse..tinggalkan hal duniawi..tetapi hakikatnya kite xboleh mengasingkan antra duniawi dan aukhrawi. Bagi aku setiap perkara duniawi yang dilakukan perlulah stabil dan seiring dengan hal ukhrawi. Kan? 


Mcm hal keje. Setiap hari pergi keje matahari pon br nak keluar, habis kerja matahari da ilang diawan menggantikan sinaran bulan. Dan ye seperti yang sedia ketahui kerja tu sendiri adalah ibadah. So, sebaiknya semaikan dalam hati kite, niat dgn ikhlas untuk mengerjakan ibadah tersebut. Dalam pada tempoh masa kerja itu juga, perlulah kita ingat ibadat wajib yang perlu kita kerjakan, SOLAT. Bak dalam lagu saujana "walaupun hidop seribu tahun, kalau x sembahyang apa gunanya....."


Kadang2 bila kite membuat kerja kita menjadi leka dan melupakan solat, Harus kite ingat bahawa kite mungkin lupa tetapi Allah tidak mungkin lupa janjiNya. 


Perkara solat la yg plg aku takut. Terkadang pernah jugak terbabas solat ni..sedih nye rase. Dan lagi la sedih bile kadang2 tu kite x mampu untuk mengajak kawan2 di persekitaran kite untuk sama2 manunaikan tiang agama ini agar iman kite tidak rapuh..


Terkadang ade ase jeles kt kawan lain yg dpt bekerja dlm keadaan yg boleh dikatakan "bi'ah solehah"...tp tu la org kata sebenanrnye Allah itu Maha Adil. PAstinya ada hikmah yg tersembunyi.. yg plg ketara aku rasa..Allah sedang menguji aku...menguji iman aku..huhu...ase sgt statistik iman aku naik turun, klu leh digambarkan mcm paparan saham kat bursa malaysia..:D


Harta didunia tidak kekal lama..Bila ajal da datang hanya amalan yg jd peneman...T-T

SpAm ScAm

tatao la ape lg yg melanda...semenjak adanya Facebook ni..bermacam2 jenayah siber yg berlaku yg membuatkan aku merasa terpenggil tuk mengisi ruang blog ni yg sememangnya lama aku tinggal sebab banyknye kekangan atas urusan duniawi yg lain...

konklusi yg aku dapat dari kejadian mlm ni. hati2 la dengan security setting and right kite as user to any social web..senang ckp FB la skan yg femes kan...pastu dengan email (korang mesti penah dpt email yg ntah pape kasi link suh click..sender might be our friend but d actual yg happen bukan kwn kite pon yg send tu..seeloknye jgn la tekan...delete jer terus...satu lg yg guna servis internet banking or e-banking, stats aku tgk maybank2u adalah antr risiko plg tinggi t'kena heck...sampai kan ade friend of friend aku lost his money rm1000, bnyk tu sorang die amek, kalau sepuluh akaun die berjaya heck da bpe da kt situ, 10k....and no wonder last week maybank bhgn security privacy ni kecoh sal menda ni sume..n diorang sendiri pon pesan klu ade email masok bg link ape2 jgn tekan, if nak bukak pon jus amek copy of link tu n search kt search engin..dont just simply click kt link yg already been given..

tuk security account lak...br2 ni facebook baru memperkenalkan cara terbaru tuk meningkatkan security level,
i - nula2 click kt bar account, choose account security
ii- then tandakan pada ruangan Secure Browsing (https).
iii- click butang save kt situ.


ok la memandangkn mata ni da ngantok tahap gaban..GTG!!!

Hurdle is a tools for strengthen our spirit...SeNyUm...

Huh...tak sangka da hampir tujuh bulan sy bekerja di situ...
Didalam keraguan hati [betol ke aku wat ni...relevan ke tindakan aku ni menerima tawaran bekerja] then bersambung lagi episod kekosogan hati untuk meneruskan karier disitu dan kini terasa seperti bersemangat.
Sememangnya tidak dapat dinafikan bahawa sepanjang disana bermacam-macam rintangan dan cabaran perlu ditempohi. Syukur kehadrat Ilahi kerana sepanjang perjalanan hidupku berseorangan disini tanpa ahli keluarga terdekat dan teman baik, Allah still tidak meninggalkan saya keseorangan. Betapa tegar dan toyanya saya sekarang walaupun sy kira still dalam tempoh belajar kena marah kena 'bomb' kena ape2 jer la lagi yang seangkatan. Semoga ape yang ditempuhi disini memberi pengalaman yang cukup berharga kepada sy bukan sahaja buat masa sekarang malah pada masa akan datang. 


Tertarik dengan pesanan dari kawan sy:-
In life, you will realize that there is purpose for every person you meet..
Some are there to test you, some will use you, some will teach you and some will bring out the best in you..
Some may cause you pain but you will learn to move on..
Because our life journey never ends until our last breath....


The journey are shorter now, may our last breath be in the best way, husnul khatimah..Ameen.....


Mutiara berkata - Kata:"Kadang2 ALLAH Sembunyikan Matahari,DIA Turunkan Hujan,Ribut & Petir..Kita Bersedih & Tertanya-tanya Kemana Hilangnya Matahari?..Rupa2nya ALLAH nak Hadiahkan Kita PELANGI Yg AMAT INDAH"